I've noticed that my requests for commissions have been slowly edging up from a few a year to a few a month now.
I'm beyond honored that I've been getting requests for commissions, however; as of now I am closed and currently still have one or two commissions to finish. I figure it's time to come clean to why I rarely open for commissions or struggle sometimes to finish them.
The main reason why I don't take on commissions often is because I usually place unattainable expectations on what should be done for a commissioner.
When I do drawings for myself I don't mind posting pieces that aren't perfect or have issues with them; they're for me so I don't care about the errors. When I take on a commission I feel that the requester expects the absolute best piece of art I can possible do.
I realize that 99% of the commissioners out there aren't looking for for absolute perfection... it's more or less an expectation I put on myself. When a person put's themselves into a position where they feel that giving it their all simply is not enough, they set themselves up for expectations that are completely unattainable.
Because of this I more often than not choke up and shut down when I try to work on commissions... because I simply feel that I cannot give people what they expect. This is something I have to work through if I ever want to be more then just a "doodler". It's also the reason why commissions can take a while to work through for me. I do not want to start into a commission until I feel absolutely sure that I am ready to tackle it.
I simply wanted to give some insight into my crazy random commission openings and what not.